I have fallen in love with flour.
Combining this soft material with salt, yeast and water is pure magic.
Today I have been watching bread rise twice with my second batch of brioche using a delicious recipe from flour by Joanne Chang and my first batch of breakfast bread from Home Made Simple.
The brioche is scrumptious with just a little butter rubbed on immediately after leaving the oven. Then eating after it has cooled for about 30 minutes to an hour… it is perfect!
I bake it at 325 for 20-25 minutes. I prefer rolling it out into ten 2″ rolls and ten 1″ rolls and then placing the 2″ roll into a cup in a 12 cupcake baking sheet. I press an indentation into the 2″ roll and then place the 1″ roll snugly in the center.
The brioche recipe from Joanne is wonderful, because you can make the dough the day before, let it proof in the refrigerator over night and then bake the next morning!
Society has been teaching me that I “deserve” a venti frappe, I “need” a new outfit for each new season and I “should” have my deepest desires. But, my heart has been asking me why? Why is society teaching me to spend money – even if I don’t have it (credit cards) and especially when I don’t really “need” it.
It is strange to awaken to a reality that I didn’t realize had grown up all around me. I thought I was frugal. I thought I was making wise spending decisions. All until I look at my monthly credit card statement.
Why did I “need” to eat out everyday this week for $150 instead of eating at home for $30? Why did I “deserve” to spend $5 for a $0.75 cup of coffee?
I start thinking that society might not be working in my best interest. Maybe society is just trying to drain me of money so it can continue building up, up and up.
Is there an emergency exit somewhere? Is there a way to turn around this type of training and start building a life where I work together with other people and actually live a creative and fulfilling life without wasting money on things I definitely don’t need, don’t deserve and shouldn’t be buying.
Is that chemical based coffee good for my body? Is eating out and consuming fast cooked food healthy for my life? Is buying another cup and saucer really going to provide some purpose in my life?
Maybe, what I really need to be learning is… what is “need”? What can I not live without? What do I need to survive? What will help me live a healthy and safe life?
So many thoughts are running through my head! What do you think? Have you found the solutions? Have you also been struggling with this phenomena that feels like a war between me wanting health and safety vs following society like a robot.
I have been reading “The Nourishing Homestead” by Ben Hewitt and it just reinforces my feeling that there has to be something better.